Collapse Despite Private Support

I was 41 years young when what I had been battling with privately - and what I had been seeking professional help and support for behind the scenes - finally reached a point of collapse. My life as it was then fell apart: marital, family, professional and public.

What had been going on behind closed doors, behind the curtain, and underneath the mask was suddenly unravelling in front of my very eyes. The things I had managed to keep contained for years were no longer hidden. They were no longer private. They were happening in the open.

In the years leading up to this collapse, as my life was growing, developing and becoming more established, something else was growing alongside it. Fear. A deep, quiet fear of “What if this happens? What if I can’t keep spinning these plates? What if my marriage breaks down? What if things go wrong with my business? What if the structure I’ve built can’t hold?”

Then, at 41, I began to experience for real what collapse looks like. Marital collapse. Business collapse. A collapse in public perception. A loss of stability that I had worked so hard to maintain, and a sudden exposure of what had been fragile all along.

To now help men and women - people currently living a life that appears structured, ordered and stable, with credibility in their marriage, family, children, work, career, or home - so that they are guided to where they need to be before everything gives way, this means more to me than I can put into words.

My heart is for men and women who appear to have it all together. Those who have family, children, a home, and financial stability, yet underneath the surface know that something isn’t right. Like I once was, they may be searching for something, without knowing what that something is - only sensing that what they are carrying cannot hold forever.